Fear

Regardless of what people thought I was willing to give you a chance.
Willing to see how far things would go.
I thought you were different. But you haven't proved me wrong.. yet.
Wanting to be with someone means putting problems aside.
The simple sound of your voice, the one that makes my stomach twist and turn cries out for you.
The thought of you being here with me at this very moment, wishing it would never end makes me want you even more.
At times like these, I don't know what I want.
I'm so young and so innocent.
I trust too easily and find myself getting hurt often.
It only takes a few seconds to answer the phone.
It only takes a few seconds to tell you how I feel.
Letting it sit there to ring is like a never ending story.
I never know when it's going to stop, I never know if you'll even pick up.
I know it's too soon, but I tend to over think things a lot.
I guess it's my problem like anger is yours.
I'm so afraid.
Afraid of love, afraid of what you think of me, afraid that you'll walk all over me like the others.
Girls like me, don't date guys like you.
I don't know why I like you, or why I'm so confused. I think I'm not the only one that feels this way.
It's hard to say we'll have a future if you don't even have a future for yourself.
I'm not like those other girls you've met before.
I'm different, my experiences are what have made me the person I am today.
Maybe that's why girls like me are so hard to find, I care too much.
Why must you be so busy all the time? I hate that word. You don't even work. I don't think you know the meaning of busy. I'm busy all the time. But if I could, I'd talk to you all the time just to hear your voice and forget about the rest.
But I can't make you change, you are you and I am me.

-Brigitte