Last Remarks

This will be the last time I speak of you, I promise.

I want to apologize for being so cruel and saying things I shouldn't have said. There's a quote that says "he who angers you conquers you," you conquered me. I was so upset that you betrayed me. So upset you did me wrong. One of the few people I thought I could trust turned their back on me. I don't know why your sister said that guys don't like me because I'm clingy and obsessive we both know that I am not any of those things, the reason why I've been single is because I don't chase after guys and deal with them when they do something I don't like. But that's besides the point. I didn't even write that wall post, I don't think your sister should have said those things about me. Especially that I was a "bitch" and should "burn in hell." I in turn hope that you make it to Heaven!

That girl I knew, that girl I called my best friend is a stranger to me now. I don't know who you are anymore or what you have become. I don't know why.. but ever since you met Hugo it was like you were possessed by the devil. I lost you. I lost my friend. I don't want you to think I am jealous because what he's done has no name. I couldn't imagine being with someone that resembles a white-washed tomb. All the negative aspects hinder his good looks. Now I know why looks shouldn't matter. When the right person comes along I'll know. There's no need to be jealous of a guy like him, it's a waste of my emotions. From the moment I had trouble sharing my beliefs with him I knew he was not of God. I just grew that feeling.

He proved me right. Look at what he did to us. To believe I even told him you would never consider talking to him in that way because I thought you were different. I thought you were my friend. It's been a terrible week for me. Around this time last year I lost my old best friend and now I lost you.

What made you do the things you did?
What did I do to you?
Your sister said after the incident with so-and-so that I hurt you.
Why did you continue being my friend?
You hurt yourself, what you did was not my fault.

I tried to help make you a better person.
I always helped you in any way I could.
I cannot perceive why you would do that to me, why you would end a friendship just like that with no reason.

I'm so confused, frustrated, overwhelmed.
I wish you would answer my questions.
I wish you wouldn't have been a coward and talked to me about it.
I wish things would have been different.

You didn't even take your own advice.

Take care of yourself! Don't do something you'll regret later. I don't want you getting hurt. I still care for you.
I didn't just go from loving you to hating you from one day to another.
You just pushed me away for a guy. Which let me remind you.. wouldn't be in your life right now had it not been for me. Had I never mentioned to him to you he would be non existent in your life.
I hope he doesn't hurt you. I mean that with all my heart!

But that is why I needed to be like George Washington who once said to:
"Be courteous to all, but intimate with few, and let those few be well tried before you give them your confidence. True friendship is a plant of slow growth, and must undergo and withstand the shocks of adversity before it is entitled to the appellation."

I'm not expecting you to apologize to me.
Repent to God.

I won't forget all the good times we've shared together and the laughs. You were a blast.
Thank you for having been there for me (while we were still friends).

Love Always,
Brigitte